Firstly I must apologise if this pink text is annoying you. I just felt like being a little girly today :)
Secondly I would like to apologise for all my whining and bitching over the last couple of weeks and for basically being a misery guts. I have had a chance to really re-evaluate my life over the last week and I have spent many hours berating myself. But I've also come up with some solutions so its not all bad.
My first decision was to stop. Stop what you say? Stop everything! Stop doing what I'm doing, stop feeling sorry for myself, stop being so lazy.....just stop. None of those things are working for me.
My second decision was to spend today writing a list of everything I want to do and have in the future...which I did. My next decision was to write it here, in front of you guys, to hold myself accountable for the actions I have to take for the changes I want to make. (Next action....stop pretending to be a poet)
I'm not going to list every goal I made right here right now. For one, it would take too long and for two, it would bore you to death and I need you all to be alive and well so I can be humiliated if I do something that is not congruent with achieving my goals. But each Sunday, I will write here a new goal for the week that I will have to have done by the next Sunday or else face all of you with my head hanging in shame.
First I am going to concentrate on my weight. It has been a problem for me for about 4 years now. I can't blame the kids. My youngest is 6 (do the math). It is all on me. The last few years have been particularly stressful for me and when I'm stressed I eat. My whole life I have been very skinny. I used to be teased in high school for how skinny I was. I didn't even put on a lot of weight when I was pregnant and snapped back into shape right after the births without dieting or exercising. I was blessed! I thought it would last forever. I didn't think it was possible to put on weight. But then it happened...I turned 30. Everything went downhill from there. So today I am finally taking charge! Especially because I keep hitting things with my hips....I'm obviously still a thin girl in a fat girls body because I still think I can fit through small spaces and today I almost knocked the new tv right off the table.
I wasn't going to admit to how much weight I had stacked on but one of my goals is to be braver so here goes.....I need to lose 20kg (44 pounds). OK now that I have confessed you can close your gaping mouths!
So here's how I'm starting:
1. Stop drinking Pepsi and start drinking water - I am a total Pepsi addict and I actually get a ripper headache if I stop drinking it for one day so I am going to be realistic and try to wean myself off it instead of going cold turkey and ending up in a bell tower popping off Coke drinkers. I am setting myself the goal of only one glass per day for this week. And I will drink 8 glasses of water a day.
2. Cut down my portion sizes - This week I will start eating from a smaller plate so I can cut down the amount I eat
OK so that's it. Hopefully I can keep that up for the week and I'll let you know how it went next Sunday (good or bad!)