I'm not sure what I am doing wrong. I try everyday to do the right thing, be a good person, live a clean life. Either I was an absolute monster in a previous life and I am being punished for it now or my whole life's philosophy is completely wrong. I am tempted to just give up and act like a total butthead to everyone I come across. I see total bastards succeed everyday and here I am being nice and pushing crap uphill.
What is the worse that could happen if I do a total 180 on my personality and become the biggest a-hole in all the land? Could I get beaten in the head? Be totally unloved? Lose money? Too late! So logic states that things couldn't possibly get worse if I'm a butthead.
What does everyone else think? Stay the way I am and wait the rest of my life to be rewarded for my good deeds with the possibility that it may never happen or become a big a-hole and possibly become the most successful person you've ever met?
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Stay true to yourself even if you have to take a beating for it...
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry that your year has been difficult for you. :( But, I have to plead with you...Stay strong and stick to your values! Do good, be good and treat everyone with kindess and respect (even if they don't deserve it) Believe me...the reward you will receive from acting with honor will be more amazing than you could possibly hope for!
ReplyDeleteI have faith that you will continue to be a shining example of what goodness and generosity really is...and I truly hope that things turn around for you soon....
This is how I felt last year. We had a terrible 2009! It was awful. So, I totally understand. Keep your head up and be an a-hole when you feel like it, but be true to who you are, too. Take care of yourself during this difficult time and you will come out the other side. I promise.
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